First week and this is crap.

Why being so emotional today? Crap. It's not because of the age, isn't it? Why? Because I'm eighteen to be (when it comes to 25 December in every year) and I need to think far ahead beyond people's expectations just to show I'm adult enough.... to show I'm mature enough to hold everything... to prove to everyone I'm big enough and thats why I can't love people as I usually do... Damn. Where the heck those theories come from? Where......??! Maybe setiap insan are sooooo different to others and that's why we can't understand them. When we try and try to break the walls and even we can't even resist the affection, kau tahu la... Break the ice and we are tied to be friends. And kalau untung, boleh jd close friends bukan takat kenalan. Aku tak pandai nak kawan dengan lelaki and thats why I feel so cuak when they stare padahal takdo apapa pun. Some of them will call me kerek or whatsoever, aku tara hal with that call. Asal aku tak kacau kau, kau tak kacau aku . That will be fine. Bukan takde langsung member lelaki, ada.. Just.. to begin a new friendship in this university life, it felt like.... entah. Malas. So I really really appreciate bila I got friends that I can ramble with.. nearly about everything. And they are girls. Seronok lah sebenarnya kalau nak diikutkan. But when it comes to semua mood spoil, mula aku nak homesick. But I do miss my mom, abah and brosters, and tak lupa popok and uteh. Urghh when I thought of kuceng-kuceng gemok tu, tak tipu la I can crave my smile time tu jugak! How I miss them..

To my dearest housemates.... Aimi, Nad and Pikaa.. (Diba ngan Fina wait sampai aku kenal korang! hehe!) Aku sayang korang.. Cey mesti semua pakat geli tengkuk kan. Pahal lak aku jiwang. Lantak ah. Aku kan comel. Wee weee :D Wei korang. I do still hope in the end of this semester, there will still got solat hajat+baca yassin sama-sama, strive to the end sama-sama, dinner together, kau kutuk aku aku kutuk kau, tazkirah semua tu. I miss them though I'm not saying them. Aku dah la first time buat semua tu ngan orang except family... Sebab tu aku susah sayang org constantly macam Sarah.

How I wish classmates are close tied together as well too.

Asal lak aku cam jiwang karat hari ni. Aku mesti homesick ni. Aku tau... Sebab tu aku melalut kalau tak mesti ego semacam. Desis kata hati Nad kat aku. Hehe. Broadband Yes pahal tak leh connect. Dah few days and I need to depend on Palam punya. Susahla camni nak research untuk lab. Booth tu pun cam nak bukak segan tapi mati tak mau. Doggle kot rosak and I really hate this. Tak suka ah kena depend orang. Lecei. Nak download lagu pon tak buleyy. Jangan seksa aku camni, boleh mati boring camni. Asal boring ja bukak buku ilmiah... Sumpah la sesumpah ni tau! And Mr. Bintang.... Where are you. Kau kat mana...  Kenapa aku tak penah nampak kau.. even once in this week. Kau kat raf pon takde kau tak makan ke... Ke kau makan time lain.. Kau class selalu kat mana.. Aku selalu dari pagi sampai malam siap tukar lecture hall banyak kali in a day kau tau, but still tak nampak kau.