sakit jiwa sat. warning : adult content.

........this is not the end yet........
...this is not gonna be happen...

and the list goes on and on. there is too much hope, and too much things that need to be considered of when you are about to choose what you gonna do for future.

trust me.

masih ada lagi student 3.7+ grad asasi and dapat course lelong sebab all the UPU's dia isi medic. thats why..
ada prerequisites to fill in and bila dapat course lelong.... baru tahu berderai hati luluh jantung semua sebab selama ni to strive macam nak mati dalam final exam yang gap dia sehari nak baca semua from the first page to the end of biology, maths, fizik and chemistry tapi dia bagi gap sehari. celah mana nya hang ni genius sangat padahal study week dapat dua hari? sebab tu la time asasi dan matriks main sikit, hancur banyak. ambik iktibar, bukan buat kes. senior dah banyak lalui. fine semua orang berhak success in own way. tapi kalau sebelum pi degree dah waste setahun, untuk apa ja belajar gila, study gila sampai eyebag dah macam hanger boleh gantung baju, lepas tu dengan masuk sem 2  dah macam ala-ala zombie. timetable rabak macam hectic nak mati. buat apa waste the time when you know you are not even serious of thinking that ones? i never experience all these when i was in smksp. 3 hours fighting. 3 hours striving. 3 hours working all out. the only things that left is.... miracle and hope. tawakkal. in sha allah. =) there's always another crucial thing out of than love. you tell me what when you are experiencing that. thank you.


mama. i miss your cooks.
and im going to learn to cook after this bcs i know how it feels when it comes to starving.
i will ma. i will :(